There was
a time of my life when I was immersed in secularism. I began to recover in my late twenties, a
process given a sudden and decisive boost by a powerful conversion experience in my thirtieth year, as I have
related in other posts [here, here].
That was the start of an amazing adventure. In the first flush of rediscovered faith I
experienced an unexpected joy in prayer,
and many problems that had seemed insurmountable before were now, surprisingly,
manageable.
We can't all pray like monks . . . |
I have heard this honeymoon period after a
conversion, or reversion, referred to as the “Pink Cloud” phase. The Catholic tradition wisely tells us that
conversion is a process and the pink cloud, like the infatuation at the
beginning of a relationship, sooner or later (sooner, usually) dissipates,
leaving the long and often hard road that is the only way to true love.
So it was
for me. Eight years down the road my
wife and I had moved to another state (twice) and had several small
children. Life was good, but my spiritual
life was stuck. I needed something more,
but I didn’t know what. It happened that
we were visiting my wife’s family, and as I was driving past the church where I
had been moved so profoundly years before the bells began to chime (literally). The clock on the dashboard said 6
o’clock. “Vespers”, I thought to myself,
and then it struck me: I could pray the Divine Office. In fact, it seemed as though I was being told
I should
pray the Divine Office.
I was
excited about the possibility, but had no idea how to go about it. I had a very vague understanding of the
Divine Office: I knew that it was a series of formal prayers said at certain
times every day, and I knew the names of some of those prayer times (Matins,
Lauds, Vespers), but that was it. As
soon as our car ride was over I looked up “Divine Office” in the encyclopedia
(my mother-in-law did not have internet access) and started piecing it together. I learned that the Divine Office (now called
the Liturgy of the Hours) goes back to the very earliest days of the Church,
and is built around the praying of the Psalms and certain Canticles (poems or
songs) from other parts of the Bible.
The Magnificat, for instance, which is the prayer Mary says when
she meets her cousin Elizabeth (Luke 1:46-55), is always part of
Vespers (i.e., Evening Prayer).
I did not
at first feel ready to pray the actual Liturgy of the Hours (I didn’t even know
where to find the prayers), so at first I just made a point of praying some
time close to the canonical hours. Soon,
however, I started to find resources online, and eventually bought a fairly
inexpensive prayer book. The Divine
Office changed everything: not only did I have a much fuller prayer life, but I
found that it really did “sanctify time”, as they say. I felt closer to Christ and his Church, and I
became much more familiar with Sacred Scripture in the process. I also found that some ingrained patterns of
sin which
had withstood my earlier experience became more tractable. It was, in fact, another conversion.
. . . family life can be busy |
I do need
to point out that I have never been able to pray like a monk: I have a wife and
children and need to work extra jobs to keep them all clothed and fed. Priests and religious, and certain lay
people under vows, are required to pray the Divine Office in a certain
way; the rest of us can adapt it to our situation. I am planning a series of posts discussing
various aspects of the Liturgy of the Hours, including how busy lay people can
incorporate the Divine Office into their regular prayer life, available
resources, the history of the Divine office, and my reflections on some of the
particular hours.
In the
meanwhile, I encourage you to click on the logo below and visit divineoffice.org,
one of the best online resources available.
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